Preliminary Results

Guess this serves as a reminder that we can fool ourselves to think things are a certain way but we really have no idea. We received a call from Sophie's oncologist last night to inform us that the tumor appears to have grown. There was some discussion as to the possibility of the dye in the MRI causing it to look different but it seems like we will be having to start up chemo again with our little girl. We meet with doctors on Thursday to discuss our options and there is a possibility that we won't do anything and wait another month before getting another MRI to confirm that there is growth. Mentally exhausted, really thought that we were going to get good news, I guess it goes to show that you can never let your guard down when fighting this disease.

The day before the 3-month MRI

Tomorrow is a big day at our house. We are taking Sophie in for her three-month MRI to see if there has been any change in the status of the tumor. It's strange to think that after finally getting things back into a routine and where everyone feels almost recovered from everything that we've been through, things could change by Wednesday if we are given unexpected bad news. The decisions that would have to be made, possibly having to leave work again, figuring out logistics of a new chemo schedule, the emotional toll that it takes on all of us; just exhausting to think about. I usually have a feeling about what we will find in the MRI even before we hear the results and I expect things to have remained dormant based on my observations of her every day behavior, but you just never know until you actually are shown the pictures and given the doctor confirmation. It will be a long couple nights.

Debating whether to start this blog

Not sure why I chose to start this blog now, with all that we've been through the last 18 months I never saw myself sharing our story. Maybe it's Thanksgiving around the corner or the fact that we take Sophiie in on Tuesday the 16th for her first MRI since stopping chemotherapy at the end of July, not sure. Some of it probably comes from recent conversations that I've had with my wife, coworker, and friends; I'm not someone who likes to dwell on the trials that I go through but if in doing so it helps others going through the same, maybe there is something to it.